Sorry it has been a while since I did any updates. Miss negative has been hanging around lately. Finally starting to feel a little more upbeat. My last update was applying for assistance. Well long story short.. So far we do not qualify. Now I am focusing on getting the house clean, so that if I do end up going back to work then at least the daily will be just pick up. Then deep clean once a week and detail once a month. However, I have a feeling that I will not be going back to work, by my own accord. I have enjoyed being home with the family and being a MOMMY!!!! and WIFE!!!!!
The last three months have shown me that dividing yourself into thirds does not work.
1/3 Home: means cooking, cleaning, raising three kids, getting the oldest to karate, being a friend, allowing my kiddos to have friends and social lives, and most importantly BEING A WIFE!
1/3 Work: means working scheduled shifts on my feet 6-8 hours at a time (after already devoting the other 1/3 to home), lifting items that weigh 50 pounds (sometimes more) for people that expect to be treated as if they are the first person I have seen all day, smiling through the pain and stiffness because there is the possibility that I could get written up for not smiling, and doing much more then my body wants so that others do not feel that they have to pull my weight as well as their own.
And last but not least, 1/3 to PAIN..... that third tends to take over after a day that can last 20 hours.
In the end I have become one with this condition. My day at home with the kids and doggy and hubby and friends, has been adjusted so that the pain and stiffness is just part of daily life.
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